I hate it when people tell me that. Because every time I hear that, it's always the exact opposite. And it just hurts me even more.
How do you let go of something that you have such strong feelings for? How do you just drop it and move on? I can't even explain how I feel, and I wish I could explain...I don't even know.
I'm confused, and none the less heart broken for once in my life. I think this is an act of Karma, you cunt.
But who am I to sit here like a sap, and watch all of this shit fall right in front of my face.
I know I'll get over it in a matter of minutes, but that doesn't mean it won't pop up every day out of no where, in which it will leave me confused and upset once again. And I hate this feeling. This feeling of not being able to move on, this feeling of loneliness, the need to have someone, the need to get fucked, the want to have someone to talk to.
Words can not express the way I feel about this situation.
Lately I've found people that I honestly have some feelings for, but then they have such bad qualities about them, that I can not stand, so I don't push anything and forget about it. It's not worth it. And I am not going to bring it to their attention because that's who they are, and I am not changing anyone. That's so lame, and a waste of time.
So, I'm fucked either way.
I'm glad no one gives a shit about this blog.
Because I'm gunna start getting deep; and no one ever sees this side of me. Ever.
