Why is it that each night right before bed I think about all of the horrible shit I've done in the past? Like the shit I did three years ago, the boys I were infatuated with at the time, the shit I said on the phone to someone while I was fucked up, all of the horrible one night stands I've had(five in total,) I mean what the fuck am I doing? All I'm thinking about is how horrible of a person I am and how much of an idiot I must have looked like to those people. I'm worried of how I am viewed now but why should I care? Why why why I always over think it never stops my mind just keeps going and u want to smash my brain with a hammer or something. I can't figure out how to let shit go or how to move on from really stupid shit from years and years ago.