my cat is so ill, she's basically a walking skeleton.
but we cant afford to put her down.
so she now suffers everyday.
who's to be wronged or punished for this act of selflessness.
not only are we being selfish, but we are not thinking of what she would want either.
and i know, it's a cat to some people, but fuck off. fuck you. i fucking loved this cat, and my other cat who just recently got put down due to the same common illness my current cat has.
its not that I'm a pussy, but i have to watch them pass away.
does anyone know what its like to watch people die.
to watch the process of the body decomposing, while the mind is squeezed of its last drops of intelligence, and any sort of thought process for that matter.
we all just fall apart.
we process into ash.
and everyone still alive has to deal with this loss.
how to over come such a deep feeling is unlike any other.
its as if your heart has been torn out and you've got a gap inside you.
the need to cry and whine and seek for help is annoying.
the need to let out emotion, stress its just no unappealing.
its such an unpleasant though. the loss of someone or something so close to you that it hurts your heart.
my heart hurts.
my eyes are pouring more and more as i watch this loss happen.
because i know it is going too.
and i know its the only option i have for her.
the only thing i can do that would end the shit for her to deal with.
now comes the time where i man up an do it.
and i think i have to do that sooner than expected.
fuck.
