But not being invited just makes me feel even worse then I did.
Instead I feel as if I've been back stabbed and my heart is killing me. My heart feels like a hole, along with this lump in my chest and this lump in my throat.
I can not tell if this is me just being my bipolar self or if I'm just reading into my gemini sign too much.
I just can not seem to figure myself out these days. I'm craving something more, I need something more, I want a change a huge change at that.
I want a boyfriend in all honesty. And I think it just kills me because I know we won't work out. You just aren't for me.
I feel as if you lie to me all the time, and I could never talk to you about anything. Like even talking about how I feel about you to you would be a useless conversation. Useless.
I'm beginning to feel like that's how this is going to end up.
