Not saying I'm a loser or a crybaby or a dumb cunt whore.
Just how I can not not over think and over analyze everything.
I over think on a subject forever until I drive myself insane. I can't help but want to make it better or tweak it or do something. But I can't change the past obviously.
Maybe I just need to drop some cid and fuck it. But I can't bring myself to do that shit. I don't want to become a druggie.
And this whole boyfriend thing is getting to me. I just really need someone who can just truly talk to me, someone to be a best friend with, someone who will not judge me, someone who will not try and compete with me.
And I swear to fucking god nate if I don't get my computer back tomorrow, heads will roll.
I'm seriously so fed up with everyones bullshit. Fuck all of you. I hate everyone.
